My mind has changed a lot in the past year for the better
If you cant find happiness on your own, you wont find it with another person?
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Sometimes you just have to accept that someone you love cant be the person you want them to be
I am having such a good time in London. Today was so nice, I feel so at ease over here. Ive noticed aswell recently how much before I was genuinely just stuck in anorexia. Like now Id say I am 5-6 out of 10 recovered which I know is only half way but my mind is so different. I know longer think eating something once that I dont feel comfortable eating is the end of the world. Being honest I think I will always eat “healthy” but over here I have let my dad cook all my meals. This is huge for me because I normally only eat foods I have 100% control over. He knows I will only eat fish and stuff like that but hes ok with that. Last night I was in the kitchen while he was making dinner and I saw him putting oil on the fish before putting it in the oven. I could feel the fear but I stopped myself from telling him to stop. I told myself olive oil is actually really good for you. I know when I go home I wont put oil on my fish but the point is its ok for me now to have something for a one off that I dont feel comfortable with. Its not the end of the world and I wont turn into a huge hippo by doing it once.
Sorry I dont know the point of this post its just a big ramble on my thoughts…
We delight in the beauty of the butterfly, but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty.
In LONDON :)
It’s the same people who bring you the most happiness that can cause you the greatest pain
Going to London next week and wish I had friends over there because its such an amazing city!
Its one of those nights where I feel like I am drowning in sadness and I cant explain why